The 30th..

January 30, 2010

This is the day I dreaded.
The day I can only picture your face, your smile, your body, your bed hair, your dreamy eyes, and every detail I can think of in my mind.
The day everything caomes crashing down like a tidal wave I am unfitting to stop - from memories to then and to now.
The day I will just once again be reminded that you are my most beloved.
The day I want to say so many things to you and can’t even find the right words to express them.
The day I want you back even more.
The day I want to see you, touch you, feel you, hear you.
The day I will just tell myself that it’s still you and nothing has changed since the last time I saw you.
You’re a blessing and a curse.
A love and a hate.
A happiness and a pain.
You are bittersweet like coffee.
You are the man. The only one.
I guess what I saw in my dream is real. The love I have for you is paralyzed to the end. 

 

And yet I know that “if I want love too badly, I will not find it. The most secure way to keep love is to give it space and care to grow. If I hold it too tightly, I will lose it.”
That’s why I’m letting you go..because I want you to grow..and that one day will come which GOD has promised, you and I will reunite in HIM..

A Beautiful Soul Encounter

January 16, 2010

I got out of the office two hours after my shift and weird as it may seem, I felt my whole body and soul were being summoned by a force I rekindle. The excitement was so ecstatic I felt suffocated by frenzy.

 

As I stepped off the footbridge, I saw the usual bus I rode to the place where I could feel him. My heart was racing so fast, I wanted to ride that vehicle to where I could meet him, and hell it was an effort to halt and to turn back. I keep hearing his voice like an impenetrable auditory hallucination.

 

Were you calling for me deep within you? Am I just imagining things or am I really hearing you?

A Long While

January 11, 2010

It’s been quite a while since I last wrote on a blog and earlier today, I just decided to pull up one of my blogs and begin writing again. Guess my first love - writing - has been summoning me when I kept my ears closed.

 I’ve come to realize that since the last time I posted something on my blog, so many things happened - career-wise, romance, spiritual well-being, and the like. And the truth is, I’m getting old.

This is just  a comeback post. A not-so-cool come back post, but one thing is for certain.. I’ll be writing again from here on..